well, i haven't posted on here for a good reason. i was trying to get some stuff figured out personally and i felt defeated about reading my old blog.
on May 18, i joined weight watchers. (no rolling eyes people) the week prior i had been with some people and when my DH and I were alone i said, "Am I bigger or smaller than ____?" He said, without hesitation, "you're bigger." I was shocked, i didn't realize that! This was the same week that I went to Market Street for lunch and grabbed a slice (600 calories) of Italian Wedding Cake instead of the fruit I went in for. I was out of control with my eating.
If you know me, you know loving food is what I'm all about. I was constantly struggling with this holiday or that celebration or just this once. I was eating all of the time....this is even after I was doing RHC.
So, I woke up May 18th, and went straight to WW. Funny, I know, I live with a personal trainer. But, I needed something new, something different. You know they make you weigh-in when you sign up...it was scary. 142.6 lbs. Not terrible, but not where I want to be.
I've started tracking points and exercising more often. The weight seems to be falling off, which is odd b/c usually when you have less to lose, its harder to lose. I'm constantly thinking, "i guess i had more to lose than i had thought." I've already lost 6 pounds in 4 weeks. I've lost one size from an 8 to a six (ha, i haven't bought a pair of sixes since my 24 birthday!) My goal weight is 128. I should have said 130, b/c 128 just seems to low.
Anyway, obviously DH was not originally thrilled at the decision of spending $40 a month to lose weight when he helps people lose all of the time, but whatever. I think he's better now that I'm at the month mark seeing as I normally don't make it past two weeks.
I'm hoping to be 130 by Kai's 2nd birthday in Sept and at goal by the holidays.
I also signed up at Luke's Locker for FIT2007. Basically an intro to running course. 6 months, walking to running a Half Marathon. Now, I think its seems a little far fetched that *I* could run for 3 hours in 6 months when I can hardly run 3 min at a time right now, but we'll see.
I'm still motivated. I guess losing the pounds has reminded me that I can do this. Crazy.